The Consequences of Falling - KD Lang

Are you breathing
What I'm breathing
Are your wishes
The same as mine

Are you needing
What I'm needing
I'm waiting for a sign

My hands tremble
My heart aches
Is it you calling
Is it you calling

If I'm alone in this
I don't think I can face
The consequences of falling

Are you thinking
What I'm thinking
Does your pulse
Quicken like mine

Are you dreaming
What I'm dreaming
I can't read your mind
One step towards you
Two steps back
Feels like I'm crawling
Feels like I'm crawling

If I'm alone in this
I don't think I can face
The consequences of falling

Its the original sound track from the movie SOLDIER'S GIRL. I just love this song and the way KD Lang sang it make me even want to hear it over and over and over again. (over tak? heh).

harsh

MACMILLAN English DICTIONARY explains that the word 'harsh' could mean :
1. difficult to live in
2. about actions / words
3. about sounds / lights etc.
4. facts: unpleasant & true
5. substances: damaging

what i had experienced this morning falls under no (2).

i could be 'harsh' too... sometimes.

:*

bull wednesday

BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

.. well at least thats the first word came out from our customer this morning. me and my 2 colleagues have to attend this operation mtg at our customer's office somewhere in jln ampang. it was rather an ad-hoc meeting. just got to know about it last nite.

i got up rather early this morning. i was wide awake at 6am. got up and took a shower. normally i spent like 15-20 min or so in the shower.. huhu. (dont ask why). after i came out from my bilik air, then i realised that i hv that 'urgent' meeting in KL. i didnt really have to dash out that early. from my house to jln ampang, it will take only less than 30min. hmm... what did i do? i slowly landed my body onto the mattress and watched tele. i dozeed off kejap. set the alarm at half seven.

hopped into my car at 8am and drove directly to the customer's building. arrived there at almost 8.35am. called my colleagues, and they were on their way. i thot of taking breakfast and changed my mind cos nanti masa meeting pasti ada minuman ringan. cool. two of my colleagues came 1o minutes later. we dashed up to the 14th floor of that building and marched into the meeting room. the customers were there already. and once we were seated... crash! boom! bang!!! bullshit... !!! kena maki kow-kow punyer wa ckp lu....

adoiii. thats the only world that i cld utter at that moment. i was a bit upset with the remarks that they threw on our faces. they didnt give us the chance to defense ourselves. we looked at eachother and surprisingly, all of us were cool. we kept quiet until everything died down. in the end, the so-called Datuk Chairman apologized for what he'd said. he was just upset with the slow progress and he knew that it was not totally our fault. (tau tak pa!!).

geram dan tension. tapi tak mengapa. mungkin dah rezeki aku pagi ni nak kena belasah. sudahnye MAKI adalah breakfast yg paling sedap utk aku this morning. no tea, coffee or biskut kering was served.

emmm alahai...

my name & happy deepavali

i received a deepavali card... huhu. bestnyer. a manager from one of our vendors sent it to me.

i guess he must have thot that i am an indian. : )

not so much of my looks or my skin colour kot? i admit that my skin is a bit 'gelap' dari biasa... haha. but i like it cos i have 'shades'. nways, i think the reason why he sent me the card was because of me NAME! its true..

some people say its unique, some say its peculiar, some say its a girl's name and some thot its an indian's name (just like the manager.. hehe)

u know what? i dont really care. im proud of my NAME and im gonna stick to it till the end. tak kisah ler org nak kata nama aku ni pelik, jelik dan getik. hehe.

im happy... and its happy deepavali..!!

satay kajang

yesterday, two colleagues (syam & abg usop) of mine were fasting and they invited me to break-fast with them. since our office is located near-by the KESAS hi-way, we decided to 'dine' at KESAS R&R - Kinrara and definitely we aimed for satay hj samuri aka satay kajang.

we ordered 30 satay ayam. haha... aku yg tak puasa ni terus bernafsu bangat bila nengok satay yg dilonggokkan secara menimbun kat atas pinggan itew.. tak sabar rasanya nak terus amik secucuk, dip into the kuah kacang dan sambal, and shove into my mouth. hehe. but of course, i was patience enough to wait until the azan maghrib. surprisingly, ramai jugak yg berbuka puasa di situ semalam.

before we left kinrara, i tapau 20 cucuk satay ayam. hehe. i brought the satay to KY and jamu tu e*** and shah. it felt good sekali-sekala dpt belanja kwn2 makan

kan?

kata orang "the more you give, the more god gives back to you..."

.. and that's what Oprah always says too. well, she can always give to people cause she can afford ma...!

darn... smlm i missed Oprah Winfrey Show at 10pm. pasal apa ek? oh ya.. lupa lak. after temankan shah dan e*** mkn satay kat KY, we headed to pandan indah. accompanied shah berurut. the masseur is good at it (massaging) and he is definitely top in my list. i been to a couple of massage parlours but none fulfilled my expectation. those masseurs are just rubbing their hands on your body with 'bad' intentions. dont get cheap one me dude cause i dont pay for a hand-job...!

: )

rumah terbuka

thanks so much to all the invites. hehe.. mcm ler bnyk sgt undangan pun!

the first invite was to henny's house. (i spelt her name as hanny. sori yek.. salah spelling). on sat'day (27-oct-07) to e*** colleague's house at ss1/10 kelana jaya - arni. smlm, i went to a colleague's house at desa pandan. thanks abg usop cos sudi jemput. ironically, all the above invites were private functions. org2 tertentu jek yg dijemput. rasa sgt bertuah ler di jemput oleh mereka itew... huhu. terima kasih daun keladi.

lepas ni ada dua lagi jemputan, satu di UEM PJ dan KLGCC. this two are more a corporate invitation ler. wajib pegi..

rumah terbuka aku? heh... lom lagi. never crossed my mind to organise one cos i dont hv a place of my own yet. klu ada insya'allah, pasti aku buka umah aku luas-luas. :) semua taruk dan semua masuk!

1640hr

its monday, and the time now is 16:40hr. i wanted to continue with the rest in 'the story of my life..' entry but i dont think i cld afford to do so. well, nothing much happened la actually from 21 to 24-oct-2007. but, let me summarised them:

21-10-2007 (sunday). i dont quite remember what i exactly did.. but obviously it was nothing to brag about. i remember going out with abg jay. oh ya.. lupa plak. i went to balai polis daerah ampang to lodge a police report. why? cause i lost my malaysia international passport. shit...! geram betoi. i dah carik merata at my place and my sister's but to no avail. actually nak buat pasport ni dah lama dah, since before puasa lagi. to cut long stroy short... there i was at the balai on sunday afternoon and did the report. the rest of that sunday was history... heh!

22-10-2007 (monday). i still remember it was raining like cats and dogs that morning. sedap bangat tido. argghhh. kena gak bangun and bersiap cos i had to go back to balai for their endorsement. cldnt do that on sunday, cause pegawai yg bertugas tiada yek! how efficient .. NOT! after i got my report stamped, i dashed to jabatan imigresen (jim) subang. had to go to subang cos i kenal sorang pegawai ni, kak Faridah - very friendly and helpful. she checked my documents and everything was in order, except... arghh. my police report. i had to add few info in it. darnn..

drove back to ampang and went back again to balai to add on few details in the report. again, i had to come back the next day for endorsement cause "kaunter kita tutup jam 3ptg ye". dughhh.. it was only 4-ish at tha time. mencik..

balik umah, kecewa dan hampa...!

23-Oct-2007 (tuesday). made arrangement with e*** to accompany me to jim subang. e*** kebetulan cuti that day. marching back to balai and get my report stamped. (.. setiap document / report yg ingin di-sahkan dikenakan bayaran RM2.00). it was drizzling that morning. drove from balai to e*** place. went straight to jim subang. once there i didnt have to queue, terus masuk jumpa kak faridah. huhu. she looked at my report and she said... 'bagus. mcm ni lah baru akak boleh hantar process'. YEAHHH... rasa lega sgt2. of course la i didnt dash out immediately. had to sembang2 kosong with her, maklumlah dia sudi tolong tengok kes kehilang i itew. and *sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...* my application was done and just waiting for jim to respond. hope they will approve my application. insya'Allah.

gitu lah klu hilang pasport. antara dokumen penting yg perlu ada sekiranya ANDA kehilangan pasport and ingin memohon pasport GANTIAN :
1. salinan ic depan belakang (2 salinan)
2. salinan surat beranak (2 salinan)
3. salinan polis repot (2 salinan - RM4.00)
4. surat pengesahan dari majikan ANDA (2 salinan)
5. dua (2) keping gambar ukuran pasport (better uols amik kat jim itself.. pic yg i bwk tuh kena decline. had to pay RM8.00. damn it!)
6. kena isik 2 borang. satu borang application yg biasa dan satu lagi borang soal-selidik. borang soal-selidik kena dptkan pengesahan suruhanjaya sumpah. it cost me RM4.00 for the 'sumpah' thingy.. (duit lagi).

whatelse? tuh aje la kot. leceh kan? taw tak pa..

24-Oct-2007 (Wednesday). today was resting day. nothing much happened. enjoyed my annual leave at home watching tele and food. beshhhhhhhhhhh..

25-Oct-2007 (Thursday). ... and its working day! really looking forward to start work full with enthusiasam............ NOT!!!

.. and its the end of the 'story of my life...'

story of my life - 19.10.2007

.. since i dont have any internet services at home huhu... no entry during sat'day and sunday. any new update wld be done during week days only. heh! tq to my office kerna sudi 'pinjam' kan i internet services-nyer itew... haha! jahat aku kan??

19.10.2007

nothing much happened. got up very late. sori sgt2 to mus d great cos buat janji palsu. janji nak jog tapi hampeh! i promise to you that i'd be jogging this sat'day and sunday. hv to cos badan dah rasa berat semcm dan aku tidak se-ringan dulu. hahar. so.. set. sat'day 27 and sunday 28 kita jog kat tasek permaisuri k. JANJI...!

Petang sabtu plak, ada invitation gi beraya ke rumah hanny, kwn mitch dan shah. sebelum gi beraya, aku dan e*** sempat lagi gi JJ Maluri window shopping & pillow shopping. we all bought bantal novelle. quite an offer - one novelle cotton pillow for RM19.90 (actual price was at RM30++). i bought two.. huhu. prior that, had a quick stop at teppanyaki makan teppanyaki chicken + rice. i had to eat cos the whole day i didnt eat anything... dinch breakfast nor lunch. hehe..

around 8-ish pm, we drove straight to shah's house. otw, we fetched mitch kat tmn dagang. shah asked us to gather at his place cos a colleague of shah's ... chris will drive us there by his car. cool.

hanny's house is located at ampang area which i had never been. dah dekat ngan hulu langat (but still in Ampang). its just a small raya gathering. just me, e***, mitch, chris, shah, and sorg kerabat di raja perlis.. (i forgot her name) and a cute girl named mimi and of course hanny's mom and their lovely cats (cute sgt). mak hanny masak nasi beriyani, ayam masak merah dan bihun goreng yg mmg MELETOP!!!! suka sgt. all of us really enjoyed the food and suma org... i think so.. memang dok tambah dan tambah.. dan tambah lagi. wow! ... so far the best food ever, utk last week. heh!

to hanny and her mom.. terima kasih bnyk cos sudi jemput dan masak such a lovely meal for us. sampai la ni aku masih terbau-bau makanan itew... keke!

esok rumah sapa pulok ek???

wake up sleepy head

zzzzz... ngantok sungguh. tahap gaban!

i was so sleepy that i slept during khutbah just now at masjid taipan usj. ish.. thats just terrible kan? the mosque was rather quiet. most jemaah in that area are still in kg i suppose. while typing, im listening to anuar zain's song LELAKI INI. what do you think of that song? did you like it? i like it cos anuar didnt really hv to scream this time around. he sounds more rilex and that if he sang it live, it will sound absolutely fantastic. tol tak? huhu. its just my opinion ler. nontheless, im not much of a fan to anuar... sorry. never bought his album and never will. but i support him in my own way. good job nuar. kain pelikat.. la.. la.. la..laaa..!

where's elina ek? i heard that she's married and live happily with her husband in kuala kangsar (kk). never been to that bandar diraja of perak. apa yg menarik di situ yek? i know that my sister (kak yus) went to Sek Men Clifford Kuala Kangsar during her form 6. apart from that i knew nothing of kk. NADA...! perhaps one of these days, i should explore part of perak that i've never been to. jom..!

lagi 3 jam nak abih waktu pejabat... huhu.

TGIF vs TGITW

its a bit too cliche now to say TGIF - thank god its friday. dont u think so?

i remember Ellen DeGeneres did in a way 'switch' TGIF to TGITW - thank god its the weekend. huhu. i thot she was brilliant. i've started to 'know' ellen via her sitcom 'Ellen' way back in end-90's. i used to tape it everytime it was on. heh. suka buat collection. but the show was stop and 'banned' in MALAYSIA after she came out and declared her sexuality. she's gay or rather a lesbian. cool. then ellen decided to have a 'girlfriend' in her sitcom and it was not aired since... mencik!

apa-apa pun, i think she's great and funny, regardless of her sexuality. im still a (big) fan of hers. she has her own talkshow now, if you didnt know that already... hehe. The Ellen DeGeneres Show. You cld catch it on astro CH711 - STARWORLD. Everyday from Mon - Fri at 1:00pm. Of cos at that hour most of us yg makan gaji akan berada di office and except during AL, EL or MC jek kita akan berkesempatan utk menontonnyer itew... :)

TKAKHJ - terima kasih Allah kerana hari Jumaat!

-gtg. ada urgent task nak kena attend to.. argh!-

lets work-out

its been ages, me without exercise and working-out. well, not to say that i do much of working-out, gym and stuff.. but i did jog ... a bit (at least) for the past months with my best buddy e***. we normally go to tasek permaisuri. we wld start as early as 6.30am and finish off at about 9-ish. selalunya jogging dlm 1 and a half round (lapse), or klu larat... maybe 2 lapses... or going 2 and a half. but never 3... huhu. believe me, i tried... but im just not there. at least not yet...!

so after raya nih, rasa bdn mcm tak berapa nak sihat. i've stuffed almost everything in my mouth - daging, ayam, gula, garam, masam, pahit, manis, kelat.. you name it. suma-nyer taruk (bak kata shiba - my hsemate!). skang ni have to start all over again. aku tak lah gemok sgt (chewah...) sederhana saja. standing at 5'7, weighing 79-80kg. some people said its an ideal weight but nahh.. i dont think so. kena reduce lagi. my best weight should be 75kg. cos dulu... beberapa purnama yg sudeh (!), i weight between 73-75kg. masa tuh saiz seluar pun 32-33cm. best sgt. but lately nih... perhaps its the AGE factor??? .. dah tua ke aku ek?

u think so?

talking about jogging kat tasek permaisuri nih... mmg besh. ramai sgt org. dari baby yg masih dlm stroller (a pushchair for babies) hingga lah ke golden girls/boys. everybody seems like crazy trying to lead a healthy life... which is good. there are groups of guys whould wld jog in a group. they are fast and they cld last up to at least 10 lapses. wow! ada yg menari, ber-yoga, tai-chi, senamrobik and even those who are just out for a stroll. MALAYSIA CERGAS!

i want to be part of them. so, this sat'day... jom kita jog sama-sama kat tasek permaisuri nak? jgn lupa pakai pakaian sukan, kasut jogging yg bersesuaian and dont forget sebotol air minuman. you wont regret it...

ado?

kluang station

nasi lemak rendang ayam

Table No. 13

13

friday the 13th, 13th floor, 13th birthday, 13 and etc..
anything that relates to number 13 seems to kick-off with unhappy ending, unlucky and much of disappointment.

true enuf.. thats what we had encountered last nite. it was so thirteeen... huhu.

first me, e***, mitch and shah headed to ez's house (a close friend of shah) at taman shamelin perkara (if im not misstaken la). shah informed that ez buat 'open-house'. when we reached ez's house it seemed quiet. so i thot... ohh, must be a private-function for us. best nih. haha. ez came out saying that his mom wasnt home and that nobody cooked. *emm.. alahai*. sudahnyer mkn kueh raya dan minum air sirap.

then, we decided to head on to any of the gerai yg available for makan. we drove around pandan indah to 'chaw-praya' restaurant - closed. pusing terus gi ke LRT Corner near LRT STAR Cempaka Station. we got ourselves a table and sat down full with enthusiasam. but nobody came to take order. lucky e*** bwk lebihan (left-over) pizza hut yg dia mkn tengah-ari tadi utk di jamah sorg sedikit while waiting for the 'hostess' to come. when she finally came, "minum saja bang... makanan dah abis!" what???? GEMPAR!!

and terus we all berlalu dlm keadaan SENTAP!

we split... shah and mitch headed on to KOSAS, while me and e*** went direct to TESCO. marching straight to KLUANG STATION. nengok bnyk kerusi kosong so we thot' good! mesti bagus. i ordered nasi lemak dan rendang ayam (yg dah keras giloor) and teh O ice limau. e*** ordered porridge but soon were informed 'dah habis'. he then ordered 'spring roll' or somethin... tapi tak sampai-sampai. har har har...!

not even half-an-hour, we decided to leave. i didnt finish my food cos my tummy dah 'kembong' ngan hangin. lagi pun ayam rendang was too stiff and rasa mcm lain sket. paid and berambusssss...

but before we left KLUANG STATION... i realized that our table was no. 13!

argghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

mencik..

almost 5pm

its my 2nd day in the office, after raya. yesterday i was alone. well, there was another colleague of mine but he was MIA most of the time. so, you cld count him out. today, adalah 2,3 org di opis. things are a bit quiet. i hv done most of my urgent tasks yesterday, so today i decided to focus on this new blog thingy. im so excited. i kinda like it bcos im so free to write just about anything. huhu (without any limitation unlike e-kwn.. duhh!) i shouldve blogged here like... way, way yester-years! im so yesterday kan?

today nothing much happen in the office. everybody was like being lazy, surfing the internet and stuff. my BIG BOSS was here just now and he stopped at my desk. i quickly switch my windows to excel.. haha. as if like he didnt know. well, nways, we were talking about the raya holiday shit-ish. and he's happen to be a Kampar-rian. cool. org kg aku jgk rupanya boss aku nih. we started guffing about malim nawar, tg tualang and things like that and, i thot he's very nice. we joked and laughed and i thot.. wow! he's alrite. surprise.. surprise!

apa-apa lah... *emm.. alahai*

i think i had enuf of 'blogging' today. balik kang ingat nak gi massage. sakit belakang siot. dari pangkal leher ke belakang badan. sepatutnya aku tampal koyok. i thot ada koyok kat umah, tapi pagi tadi carik tak jumpa plak. mencik! nak ajak e***, shah dan abg jay gi sama ar. tapi tmpt massage mana yg best ek??

any idea?

salam raya dari tanjung tualang

u can say that im a new kid on the 'blog'. huhu. well, dulu i already had a blog in e-kawan but since there's a limit of posting your words and sentences, i decided to switch to here. start a new one.. why dont i, kan?

my parents are both from perak. my mom klu tak silap, org bota. and my dad is actually org tg tualang. he grew up here. and then lepas diorang kawin, they moved here and there. biasalah cos my dad dulu keje polis. after pencen, we moved to this place called TANJUNG TUALANG. its rather a tranquil small town. dulu tak suka sgt cos kononnyer KG. but now, im lovin' it (mcm mcdonald la pulook).

tau tak katne? its nearby kampar, tronoh mines, bt gajah and malim nawar. and where the hell are these places..? (u might ask?) its in PERAK ler. heh! org perak mugkin tau dan mungkin jgk tidak.

its almost 10 years now my parents live in tg tualang and it will always be my beloved kampung forever and on. huhu.

...but i dont live there. haha. keji tak??