nothing compares to you ... 2

been giving enough thot about what's been going on the past few days. i am rather sad dat i was misunderstood and dat i hurt other's feeling. honestly, in whatever i do (or did), takde niat langsung nak sakitkan hati sapa-sapa pun. semuanya berlaku tanpa dirancang and apabila ianya berlaku, its already happened. there's nothing i could do to turn it back.

aku tak buang sesapa dlm hidup ini. mcm aku cakap dlm entry yg lepas, kawan susah-senang, sentiasa akan tersemat dalam sanubari aku ini. takde langsung niat nak tolak mereka ke tepi. aku bersyukur dikurniakan kwn-kwn yang menyayangi diri aku seadanya. susah nak dpt kwn-kwn yg mcm gini. im really blessed to have such frens and never would i let 'em go easily.

cuma bila keadaan agak tegang dan ianya membuatkan aku a bit sad, i think i have to lay low for a while. i think its best dat i keep my distance and stop all communications until keadaan reda. aku tak suka gaduh disebabkan oleh perkara yang aku anggap remeh dan tidak sepatutnya menjadik isu besar dalam persahabatan aku. i love my frenships and i want to keep it dat way. misunderstanding and miscommunication is not healthy. i would like them to heal fast so dat i could continue on with the frenships that has been built all these years. sayang rasanya nak buang kawan begitu saja.

to whom this may concerns "im sorry. lets stop this shit for a while".

8-(

dengkur

ni la antara masalah yang perlu aku atasi. aku tido berdengkur. i dont really know how loud my dengkur is but sometimes it does disturb others who sleep near or around me. huhu. malu ar beb.. mana la aku tau yang aku tido berdengkur. i think my snor wld be even louder if i was knackered. *sighhh*

today .. all my entries are about snor aka dengkuran. baik di blog, fb or twitter. haha. apa2 pun, yg penting aku dapat tido dengan lena. mgkin jgk ni adalah penyakit yang perlu aku ubati. what do you think?

btw, do you snor mate???

get a life..

nak kata kesian, mmg kesian.  menyampah pun ada.  entah lah.  cinta dan sayang boleh membuatkan seseorang tuh gila dan meroyan tak tentu pasal kan? hehe.  i hope i dont go to that extend should i ever fell in love and broken hearted... again.  i hd bad experienced once, hehe... i think it was 7 years ago.  i was young and fell in love with dat someone.  it was a rather long distance relationship and i thot we had something goin on.  but i was wrong.  DEAD WRONG.  haha. when we're finally broken off, i was really broken hearted.  meroyan.  meracau.  gila.  sebak. sedih. dan entah apa lagi lah.  semuanya negatif energy.  when i think of dat experience, aku rasa sedih ngan diri sendiri.  perhaps i was young but still... i need to control my feelings.  it couldnt be worse than dat.  org lain pun mengalaminya juga and they got thru it easily and maturely.  aku sepatutnya seperti itu. but lucky me, i grew up from that pathetic ordeal.  i became a better man and boleh control feeling when dealing with emosi perasaan sayang.

i wish a good buddy of mine boleh cepat sedar and move on with his life.  its sad to see him suffering and trying to hold on to a relationship dat wont get him anywhere.  puas dan dah berbuih mulut ni bercakap dan menasihat.  tapi... none were taken.  entah lah.  i think he's not thinking mature enough.  terlalu ikutkan sgt emosi dan perasaan sedih nya itu.  terlalu sangat mengharapkan kasih orang.  tak fikir langsung psl diri sendiri.  sad..  very very sad.

i guess im too tired of him.  my advice to him "get a life dude!..  grow up and get a life!" 

8-(

from hands to mouth...

kkdng kesesakan kewangan ni boleh dielakkan. i used to be so boros years back and i already paid the price. lebih 5 tahun aku mengsetelkan hutang-hutang and skang ni dah 'clear' sket. bole lah aku menarik nafas lega. *sigghhhhh*

tp masih ada kwn2 aku yg belum serik-serik dalam menguruskan kewangan mereka. not to say dat my financial is stable but at least, i now do have some savings and ada lah sedikit balance dalam saving accts at every end of the month. syukur kehadrat Allah sbb berikan aku sedikit kelebihan rezeki untuk setiap bulan.

membantu kwn2 kdang ada batasnya. dan aku sendiri cuba untuk tidak terlalu memberi setiap kali mereka meminta. but i know, if i dont help them, nanti dorg sengsara untuk habiskan ujung bulan. kkdng aku sendiri pun kena bajet sbb ada few outstanding payments yg perlu aku settlekan. tak tolong susah... tolong pun susah. hehe. but i look it at the positive side la ya. mgkin ini hari dorang, esok lusa sapa tau.. hari aku plak. but i hope hari-hari aku akan lebih ceria ngan suma pintu rezeki dibuka dan rezeki melimpah ruah tanpa henti. huhu. insya'Allah.

im not complaining, cuma nak share isi rasa hati ni. hehe. aku akan membantu setakat yg mampu. cuma kekdng tuh mmg diri sendiri dalam kesempitan, tapi nak ckap TIDAK tuh... agak susah nak luahkannya. huhu. napa ya? emm.. entah lah.

listen without prejudice

last sunday me, aj, shah, eirul, hafez dan mus went karaoke-ing kat news ktv ampang park. huhu. it was a last minute decision pagi tuh right after me and shah came back from jog.  sronok gak aktiviti karaoke nih.  klu tengah rasa tension yg amat sgt tuh, elok benar kita turun bersama kwn2 rapat dan melalak 2 - 3 jam. releasekan segala resah, gundah dan lara tuh.  tak guna simpan2. trust me, it helps.  haha.

i could see dat some of my frens have improved their singing skills tremendously. ni mesti pegi senyap2 praktis tanpa pengetahuan aku na? hihi.  apa2 pun, kita bukannya nak bertanding.  just for fun.  it doesnt matter if you are ke laut tasik china selatan sekali pun, telinga i tetap akan mendengar 'sumbangan' nyanyian tersebut without prejudice.  hehehe.

jom karaoke lagi! 8-)

nothing compares to you

tak salah aku nak ada kwn baru di SA kan? hehe. honestly, i dont have any frens here in where im currently staying. to hv found a fren dat is available to lepak with you all the time especially after work is quite nice actually. as months go by the relationship is getting closer and better and i dont see anything wrong with dat right? 8-)

mungkin ada yg tak setuju cos to them i look like im on cloud nine. huhu. mcm aku ni tengah bercinta sakan. ohhh tidak. aku cuma happy with this new fren of mine and i hope the relationship lasts. kepada kwn-kwn yang sedari dulu bersama susah senang, nangis dan ketawa, tak mungkin aku terus tolak dan buang ke tepi. i would be a fool to do dat. i love you guys dearly and persahabatan kita tidak akan terhenti di sini. nothing compares to you... just like lagu sinead o'connors. heheee..

jom urut

got few calls from this abg fauzi at Sek 7 shah alam untuk berurut ngan dia. adeh. i think the last time i berurut was months ago. dont get me wrong, abg fauzi ni mmg tukang urut professional and i think dia mmg arif dalam bidang ini. cuma tak brapa nk tahan, cos dia suka promosi kan barang2 sampingan yg dijualnyer itu. huhu. but layan jer lah.

i might go some time this week and get myself urut by him. ada yg nak ikut tak? jom... hehe.