The Consequences of Falling - KD Lang

Are you breathing
What I'm breathing
Are your wishes
The same as mine

Are you needing
What I'm needing
I'm waiting for a sign

My hands tremble
My heart aches
Is it you calling
Is it you calling

If I'm alone in this
I don't think I can face
The consequences of falling

Are you thinking
What I'm thinking
Does your pulse
Quicken like mine

Are you dreaming
What I'm dreaming
I can't read your mind
One step towards you
Two steps back
Feels like I'm crawling
Feels like I'm crawling

If I'm alone in this
I don't think I can face
The consequences of falling

Its the original sound track from the movie SOLDIER'S GIRL. I just love this song and the way KD Lang sang it make me even want to hear it over and over and over again. (over tak? heh).

harsh

MACMILLAN English DICTIONARY explains that the word 'harsh' could mean :
1. difficult to live in
2. about actions / words
3. about sounds / lights etc.
4. facts: unpleasant & true
5. substances: damaging

what i had experienced this morning falls under no (2).

i could be 'harsh' too... sometimes.

:*

bull wednesday

BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

.. well at least thats the first word came out from our customer this morning. me and my 2 colleagues have to attend this operation mtg at our customer's office somewhere in jln ampang. it was rather an ad-hoc meeting. just got to know about it last nite.

i got up rather early this morning. i was wide awake at 6am. got up and took a shower. normally i spent like 15-20 min or so in the shower.. huhu. (dont ask why). after i came out from my bilik air, then i realised that i hv that 'urgent' meeting in KL. i didnt really have to dash out that early. from my house to jln ampang, it will take only less than 30min. hmm... what did i do? i slowly landed my body onto the mattress and watched tele. i dozeed off kejap. set the alarm at half seven.

hopped into my car at 8am and drove directly to the customer's building. arrived there at almost 8.35am. called my colleagues, and they were on their way. i thot of taking breakfast and changed my mind cos nanti masa meeting pasti ada minuman ringan. cool. two of my colleagues came 1o minutes later. we dashed up to the 14th floor of that building and marched into the meeting room. the customers were there already. and once we were seated... crash! boom! bang!!! bullshit... !!! kena maki kow-kow punyer wa ckp lu....

adoiii. thats the only world that i cld utter at that moment. i was a bit upset with the remarks that they threw on our faces. they didnt give us the chance to defense ourselves. we looked at eachother and surprisingly, all of us were cool. we kept quiet until everything died down. in the end, the so-called Datuk Chairman apologized for what he'd said. he was just upset with the slow progress and he knew that it was not totally our fault. (tau tak pa!!).

geram dan tension. tapi tak mengapa. mungkin dah rezeki aku pagi ni nak kena belasah. sudahnye MAKI adalah breakfast yg paling sedap utk aku this morning. no tea, coffee or biskut kering was served.

emmm alahai...

my name & happy deepavali

i received a deepavali card... huhu. bestnyer. a manager from one of our vendors sent it to me.

i guess he must have thot that i am an indian. : )

not so much of my looks or my skin colour kot? i admit that my skin is a bit 'gelap' dari biasa... haha. but i like it cos i have 'shades'. nways, i think the reason why he sent me the card was because of me NAME! its true..

some people say its unique, some say its peculiar, some say its a girl's name and some thot its an indian's name (just like the manager.. hehe)

u know what? i dont really care. im proud of my NAME and im gonna stick to it till the end. tak kisah ler org nak kata nama aku ni pelik, jelik dan getik. hehe.

im happy... and its happy deepavali..!!

satay kajang

yesterday, two colleagues (syam & abg usop) of mine were fasting and they invited me to break-fast with them. since our office is located near-by the KESAS hi-way, we decided to 'dine' at KESAS R&R - Kinrara and definitely we aimed for satay hj samuri aka satay kajang.

we ordered 30 satay ayam. haha... aku yg tak puasa ni terus bernafsu bangat bila nengok satay yg dilonggokkan secara menimbun kat atas pinggan itew.. tak sabar rasanya nak terus amik secucuk, dip into the kuah kacang dan sambal, and shove into my mouth. hehe. but of course, i was patience enough to wait until the azan maghrib. surprisingly, ramai jugak yg berbuka puasa di situ semalam.

before we left kinrara, i tapau 20 cucuk satay ayam. hehe. i brought the satay to KY and jamu tu e*** and shah. it felt good sekali-sekala dpt belanja kwn2 makan

kan?

kata orang "the more you give, the more god gives back to you..."

.. and that's what Oprah always says too. well, she can always give to people cause she can afford ma...!

darn... smlm i missed Oprah Winfrey Show at 10pm. pasal apa ek? oh ya.. lupa lak. after temankan shah dan e*** mkn satay kat KY, we headed to pandan indah. accompanied shah berurut. the masseur is good at it (massaging) and he is definitely top in my list. i been to a couple of massage parlours but none fulfilled my expectation. those masseurs are just rubbing their hands on your body with 'bad' intentions. dont get cheap one me dude cause i dont pay for a hand-job...!

: )

rumah terbuka

thanks so much to all the invites. hehe.. mcm ler bnyk sgt undangan pun!

the first invite was to henny's house. (i spelt her name as hanny. sori yek.. salah spelling). on sat'day (27-oct-07) to e*** colleague's house at ss1/10 kelana jaya - arni. smlm, i went to a colleague's house at desa pandan. thanks abg usop cos sudi jemput. ironically, all the above invites were private functions. org2 tertentu jek yg dijemput. rasa sgt bertuah ler di jemput oleh mereka itew... huhu. terima kasih daun keladi.

lepas ni ada dua lagi jemputan, satu di UEM PJ dan KLGCC. this two are more a corporate invitation ler. wajib pegi..

rumah terbuka aku? heh... lom lagi. never crossed my mind to organise one cos i dont hv a place of my own yet. klu ada insya'allah, pasti aku buka umah aku luas-luas. :) semua taruk dan semua masuk!

1640hr

its monday, and the time now is 16:40hr. i wanted to continue with the rest in 'the story of my life..' entry but i dont think i cld afford to do so. well, nothing much happened la actually from 21 to 24-oct-2007. but, let me summarised them:

21-10-2007 (sunday). i dont quite remember what i exactly did.. but obviously it was nothing to brag about. i remember going out with abg jay. oh ya.. lupa plak. i went to balai polis daerah ampang to lodge a police report. why? cause i lost my malaysia international passport. shit...! geram betoi. i dah carik merata at my place and my sister's but to no avail. actually nak buat pasport ni dah lama dah, since before puasa lagi. to cut long stroy short... there i was at the balai on sunday afternoon and did the report. the rest of that sunday was history... heh!

22-10-2007 (monday). i still remember it was raining like cats and dogs that morning. sedap bangat tido. argghhh. kena gak bangun and bersiap cos i had to go back to balai for their endorsement. cldnt do that on sunday, cause pegawai yg bertugas tiada yek! how efficient .. NOT! after i got my report stamped, i dashed to jabatan imigresen (jim) subang. had to go to subang cos i kenal sorang pegawai ni, kak Faridah - very friendly and helpful. she checked my documents and everything was in order, except... arghh. my police report. i had to add few info in it. darnn..

drove back to ampang and went back again to balai to add on few details in the report. again, i had to come back the next day for endorsement cause "kaunter kita tutup jam 3ptg ye". dughhh.. it was only 4-ish at tha time. mencik..

balik umah, kecewa dan hampa...!

23-Oct-2007 (tuesday). made arrangement with e*** to accompany me to jim subang. e*** kebetulan cuti that day. marching back to balai and get my report stamped. (.. setiap document / report yg ingin di-sahkan dikenakan bayaran RM2.00). it was drizzling that morning. drove from balai to e*** place. went straight to jim subang. once there i didnt have to queue, terus masuk jumpa kak faridah. huhu. she looked at my report and she said... 'bagus. mcm ni lah baru akak boleh hantar process'. YEAHHH... rasa lega sgt2. of course la i didnt dash out immediately. had to sembang2 kosong with her, maklumlah dia sudi tolong tengok kes kehilang i itew. and *sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...* my application was done and just waiting for jim to respond. hope they will approve my application. insya'Allah.

gitu lah klu hilang pasport. antara dokumen penting yg perlu ada sekiranya ANDA kehilangan pasport and ingin memohon pasport GANTIAN :
1. salinan ic depan belakang (2 salinan)
2. salinan surat beranak (2 salinan)
3. salinan polis repot (2 salinan - RM4.00)
4. surat pengesahan dari majikan ANDA (2 salinan)
5. dua (2) keping gambar ukuran pasport (better uols amik kat jim itself.. pic yg i bwk tuh kena decline. had to pay RM8.00. damn it!)
6. kena isik 2 borang. satu borang application yg biasa dan satu lagi borang soal-selidik. borang soal-selidik kena dptkan pengesahan suruhanjaya sumpah. it cost me RM4.00 for the 'sumpah' thingy.. (duit lagi).

whatelse? tuh aje la kot. leceh kan? taw tak pa..

24-Oct-2007 (Wednesday). today was resting day. nothing much happened. enjoyed my annual leave at home watching tele and food. beshhhhhhhhhhh..

25-Oct-2007 (Thursday). ... and its working day! really looking forward to start work full with enthusiasam............ NOT!!!

.. and its the end of the 'story of my life...'